All These Things That I've Done

Can you see the reoccurring theme with song titles? I thought it would be interesting to do for at least a little while.



So, I have done a lot with my life. From school, to my friendships, to my family, to my relationship with Tasha. And, all these things that I have done I am ultimately proud of. So proud of. Sure I have had my bad moments but as the phrase under my blog states why complain about them?

It is late tonight so there wont be much this week. Other than it has been a pretty darn good week. I don't think Tasha and I have fought at all which is awesome. I want to have a real conversation with her soon about college stuff though. That would be nice. Oh and the person who commented last week, thanks! I appreciate it I just wish who I knew you were... Hmm... There are a few people you could be... Hmm... Oh well that mystery is for another day.

Ok, so it was a good week, and this Tuesday I am visiting North Central and I will be making my college decision probably by Thursday or Friday. I hope it will be the right decision and yeah. I'm sure it will be. Even if I don't wind up going to the same place as Tasha it will all work out I am sure of it. Just the thought of being without her next year is tough and pulls at my heart stings but it should all work out if it is meant to be (like I think it is).

Also I have been kind of working on a small screenplay thing. I think the idea itself is good, just pulling it off is a completely other story. I have this vision in my head of what it would look like down to every last detail it is just beyond difficult to put those details down on a word document.

Ok, I think that is all for this week, as always thanks for reading and I'll (hopefully) be posting next week!

Carry that Weight

Boy, you're gunna carry that weight, carry that weight a long time.



Words from what is probably my favorite band of all time. I can relate incredibly well. I carry the weight of my life upon my shoulders each and every day. From school, to future school, to a job, to band, to my parents, to my whole family. No matter what I seem to do I can never satisfy my family. I could be the top student at my school and they would probably still not be happy. I quit pit orchestra so I could focus on getting a job, my mom said I didn't have my priorities straight. HELLO? YOU'RE THE ONE THAT WANTED ME TO GET A JOB.

At least I have Tasha by my side. She sees what I see and knows what I feel. I wish I could have talked it out more with her tonight but she fell asleep I think. I didn't do as many journal entries as usual this past week. Though I am doing one today which is good, it's always good to come back to. Once a week like this will be good.

I have had some ideas for some podcasts recently, having a mac will do that to a guy. There is one that is a solo idea that would be nice to vent and stuff and there is one that would just be plain fun. I can't give away the name because I don't want it to be stolen and I don't even know it may have been used already. Or it may be copyrighted and completely off limits but oh well I will look into it. The microphone in my mac itself isn't bad at all. Tasha and I were just sitting here talking and it was picking everything up pretty well and pretty clear too not like muffled or anything, I wonder where the mic is on this thing. Anyways back to the weight on my shoulders...




I have to make the decision on where I want to go to school. I need a job. I need... wait I don't need to satisfy my parents, I only need to do what is right for me. I need to do what I need to do that will make me happy, I can't be bent on satisfying them my whole life it will lead to who knows where. I need to do what is best for me not them.

Ok, thanks for reading my blog whoever does. Comment if you do, follow me on Twitter (feed on the right) or email me or whatever it doesn't matter to me, I just like to know someone out there is reading what I am posting. Ok, thanks for reading, talk to you all next week hopefully.

All in Good Time

If you have not heard of the band Barenaked Ladies, then shame on you. Next to The Beatles they are my favorite band of all time. I have been a fan of theirs for quite some time now and they have just released one of their greatest records. After Steven Page left I was wondering what would happen, and it turns out something great happened. The music is beautiful and there is a song on there that reminds of my classic BNL fun. So, if you get the chance look it up on iTunes or on YouTube or whatever you do. I would love to get a hard copy of this CD, I only have it downloaded of iTunes right now.



I have been enjoying my MacBook Pro A LOT. It just works so well and runs so smoothly and all that jazz. I actually am keeping journal like entries on it within the Stickies application. I believe it is helping me get through things very well, I have been debating whether to post them or not and I'm still thinking about it. Sure it would keep my blog updated more frequently but some of it is dang personal. I do a new stickie every day and type anything that comes to mind all day (well, not during school obviously).

Things with Tasha are going well right now, we are actually going to spend a bunch of the day together until this evening. I'm not sure what else to type haha. How about I love her a lot and am always thinking about our possible future together. She does some things that get on my nerves sometimes but that can't be avoided. Every relationship has its little problems and hopefully we can work past them and have our relationship grow even stronger. I never want to lose her. I know it's crazy to be saying stuff like that and I am only in high school but it's true.

Speaking of high school... I have entered my final two months of my high school career. Kind of extremely frightening actually. One of those damn what am I going to do next moments. I have really enjoyed high school, some of the greatest times, greatest memories, and greatest friendships have been made. For instance last night on my way home from a DVC jazz fest with the jazz band one of my friends and I were able to talk about the difference between stairs, stairways, halls, corridors, streets, roads and a lot of other stuff it was crazy and our band director couldn't believe we made it last that long.

Ok, Tasha is on her way over now, so I guess I will end this and I hope to post more often now that I have my own computer and I have been looking into podcast stuff on this thing again (yay garage band!) and hopefully I can get a fun podcast going with a bunch of friends possible over the summer. Ok, as always, thanks for reading!