Well. Where to even begin? Let's just dive in I guess.
I felt it coming. I knew it would happen. Something in us would break and shit would go down. Apparently she didn't though. All semester I felt it. It felt distant and, well, not good. Sure enough she saw an inappropriate text from a "friend" of mine and it all snowballed from there.
The short of it is we broke up. Tasha and I are no more. Haven't been so for a few months now. I wont go into all the nitty gritty of it as that kind of information is private and I've processed it with my friends and family and I'm doing well.
Really well.
I think we got stuck and stayed stuck for quite a long time. We got comfortable and just stayed there, and probably would have stayed there forever if something didn't happen. I'm glad it did happen though. It was time for a change. I'm not glad hearts were broken and feelings were hurt, but I'm glad we both have a chance to do some growing now.
And boy have I grown.
Suddenly I'm dating a boy. A magnificent boy. His name is Tommie and he's what I need in my life. Supportive, caring, loving, funny, charming, sexy... the whole package. We play video games together and he loves all of my quirks and geeky things.
Tomorrow we will have been "boyfriends" for a month. I'm happier than I've been in a very long time. I've told him a lot of stuff that I tend to keep bottled up and to myself. I feel incredibly comfortable around him and everything is going great...
But, of course, there's a catch. He's shipping off to basic training for the Navy at the beginning of December. He's going off to become a corpsman (this is a fancy word for Navy medic). And while at first I was very uncertain about this fact, scared and put off by it even, I've come to accept it. He is going into it to learn and gain an education on how to save lives. He's already looking at his career after his military contract is up.
He's not learning how to be an infantryman, he's learning how to save those people. It's still something I struggle with accepting; however, I think he's worth it.
I've fallen in love with him and he's worth it. There will be a two months there where our only contact will be letters but then after that it's just a long distance relationship situation. Which, as my friend Rebecca said, if we want to make it work, we'll make it work.
It's going to be tough, but so far everything is fantastic. We've had very deep and meaningful conversations about what it means for him going into all of this and what I'm comfortable with and uncomfortable with hearing about. I've also told him about everything that's happened to me in my last relationship.
We'll see what happens. For now I'm having fun and doing really well.
Life is incredibly different now but different in a fantastic way.
