I am not quite ready to tell the interent at large why yet, but last Monday Tasha and I broke up...
Last Wednesday Tasha and I got back together.
There was, well, it wasn't really a fight more of a long discussion about stuff and at the end of it all I thought we needed a break, specifically me because I had a lot to think about. Wednesday morning at work I had this unbelievable moment of clarity with I knew being with her is what was right for me.
We both decided that no matter what our situation might be, our love is enough to hold us together. We love each other so much that we got past our differences and are moving forward happily and wonderfully.
I still have a lot to think about and I still figuring out exactly who I am, but I do know right now I do not want to lose Tasha and I love her. It is weird to think that we let things fall apart like that and everything. Us with our sad boxes of relationship stuffs and what have you.
But we are doing well now. I have had two amazing friends amongst this madness (Rebecca and Erin), and they have been there to talk to me and comfort me and just help me figure stuff out.
When I am ready to tell the entire story, I will, I just need to work through it myself first. I know this blog is supposed to be complete honesty from me but I feel a little self censorship is needed in this case, if you are one of my friends and really wants to know what is going on and what happened you should contact me on Facebook or something. I would prefer a one-on-one conversation with you than anything else.
Other than that not much is going on (ironic statement, eh?). Tasha has wanted to get in contact with some of her old friends that kind of drifted away for various reasons, so we were thinking about having a bonfire and inviting just a bunch of people and seeing what happens, but we'll see. It is all kind of up in the air right now. I wouldn't mind being in contact with some of them again too, I miss some of them and they would have helped Tasha during last week with processing the whole thing.
Well, summer keeps moving fast, which suuuuuuucks, but we are trying to make the most of it and hang with friends and do our thing. We'll hopefully be going to a friend's cabin sometime soon and hopefully some other ridiculous stuff. Just keep it real everyone, know that I am doing well and am accepting more and more everyday who I am and what that means for me. Thanks for reading, please comment if you want to!
EDIT: So I am working on a very truthful post, it's gunna take me a while to really get it to where I want it and how I want it to sound. I think I need to do it though, just so I can keep moving forward and accept everything about myself and about my life right now. Ok. Yeah, so look for that eventually. If you wanna know just message me on Facebook and I'll happily talk to you.
