Ok I have reached that point in the year, I am absolutely exhausted and burnt out and no longer wish to be here at all. I love college, and I love learning, and I want to my brain to grow and know more but I just cannot take the work load anymore. There is just so much going on all the time and I am trying to get so much done but I just have no motivation or drive to do it.
I have a presentation and a speech to give tomorrow and it really sucks. Neither of which I am that prepared for at all. It's gunna be a rough day that's for sure. And it is not just tomorrow.
There is so much going on otherwise. My supposed to be roommate for next year is no longer rooming with me, and I had no back up plan and now there is no one at all to room with. So I am probably just going to wind up back here in the dorms, which I really do not want to happen at all. Classes are getting harder and crazier, trying to do all of these readings and all this stuff. I have more speeches coming up too.
AHHHHHHH, just so much! Oh college. I am trying really hard to stay on the positive, but it is really hard right now. Trying to live by that quote up under my blog title but damn is it hard.
Just balancing everything is incredibly difficult. Getting certain things done and making sure I am staying calm and keeping my relationship healthy and all of it, just difficult. Sometimes I wish I had just gone to community college to figure out what I wanted to do. Oh well...
Well I am going to try and relax a bit now, I feel like I am getting sick and I am all sore, and yeah, so thanks for reading this really short post, now get your friends to come and read this too yeah? Ok awesome.
Monday, March 26, 2012
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Post 202 | Moving Right Along
I felt the need to write something for my blog this evening, I am trying to write and keep this updated more, no? Yes, yes I am. So I guess I should talk about what has been going through my head as of late.
Honestly I don't really know. I see all these people and they all seem so happy and having a great time and sometimes I have that and sometimes I feel like complete shit. I have way too many nights where I'm all alone and lost in my thoughts, I really do not like it. My head goes to all these weird places that I really do not like.
To add insult to injury I feel more alone than ever, my great friend who I was supposed to room with next year has bailed on me... For good reason but still, it really, really sucks. Now I have absolutely no one to room with next year. All my other friends already have plans, because, well, I made plans. I was really hoping to have an apartment next year but it seems like I am just going to end up here in the dorms again. URGH.
I made the "Moving Right Along" reference because we just saw the new Muppets movie for the first time. I really liked it, it was really funny, it made a lot of references to the first Muppets movie. I proceeded to by the Wocka Wocka value pack because I wanted the soundtrack and I like blu-rays and yay.
Ugh I just don't know right now, next year seems like a complete mess right now. I really just wish everything would fall into place magically but I know I have to do things but I don't know what to do and blah blah blah.
I'm guessing you guys don't really care about any of this. I am basically just ranting to get all of this out and try and figure things out and yeah. Blah...
Moving Right Along is such a happy song, and while my world is just moving right along it isn't moving right along in the way I want it to exactly. Thanks for reading... Ff any of you actually are...
Honestly I don't really know. I see all these people and they all seem so happy and having a great time and sometimes I have that and sometimes I feel like complete shit. I have way too many nights where I'm all alone and lost in my thoughts, I really do not like it. My head goes to all these weird places that I really do not like.
To add insult to injury I feel more alone than ever, my great friend who I was supposed to room with next year has bailed on me... For good reason but still, it really, really sucks. Now I have absolutely no one to room with next year. All my other friends already have plans, because, well, I made plans. I was really hoping to have an apartment next year but it seems like I am just going to end up here in the dorms again. URGH.
I made the "Moving Right Along" reference because we just saw the new Muppets movie for the first time. I really liked it, it was really funny, it made a lot of references to the first Muppets movie. I proceeded to by the Wocka Wocka value pack because I wanted the soundtrack and I like blu-rays and yay.
Ugh I just don't know right now, next year seems like a complete mess right now. I really just wish everything would fall into place magically but I know I have to do things but I don't know what to do and blah blah blah.
I'm guessing you guys don't really care about any of this. I am basically just ranting to get all of this out and try and figure things out and yeah. Blah...
Moving Right Along is such a happy song, and while my world is just moving right along it isn't moving right along in the way I want it to exactly. Thanks for reading... Ff any of you actually are...
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Post 201 | Playstation Vita
So I have had this new piece of technology called the Playstation Vita (PSVita) for about a week now, almost exactly a week actually I got it last Saturday, anyways... I have been playing with it and toying with it and trying to get it to work with the Wi-Fi here at school. Playing demos, surfing the web, tweeting, Facebook-ing, ya know the things you can do with an internet device these days. I have come one conclusion: it's awesome.
I do not have a lot of money right now so with the money I did have I bought a 16 GB memory card and I got a gift card so I was able to buy one game: Rayman Origins. I had yet to play it and Giant Bomb and other sites were giving it great reviews so I decided to pick it up. The game is great, but I am more here to focus on the hardware/software that is the PSVita.
So after a week I can really say it is quite an awesome piece of machinery. It really is. The dual analog sticks are a portable-gamer's dream, and the screen is amazing. Rayman looks great and so does Motorstorm RC for that matter. People have complained about holding it weirdly because of the rear touch panel, but I can grip it comfortably without touching at all. Not that it matters for the games I am playing at all.
It's shiny, and it stays relatively shiny. Even after playing it for a day it still looks relatively clean. I have a microfiber cloth nearby so it isn't that much of a hassel to wipe off the screen quickly. I have had no issues with battery life simply because I always have a cord nearby. The fact that it is USB and I can plug it into my computer or whatever makes it really easy.
The software is, well, mediocre. The menus are alright and the bubbles look decent but there is some clunkiness to it that I just do not like. Take, for instance, having to go into the settings menu. You have to launch the settings app and then press start and then you have the settings. They aren't quickly at your fingertips like a PS3. The same goes for the trophies list, or the friends list and what have you. It just feels like there are few to many screen taps to get to some of the relatively simple menu items.
But like I said, I am having a great time with it. I am still working through Rayman and the Motorstorm RC races are a lot of fun. Quick load times for both games I have to say. I feel like switching from even to event in Motorstorm RC is really quick and snappy. Rayman is a lot of fun and I am glad I picked it up to play with. I'm enjoying it even if I am not really clear on the storyline.
So yeah, there's my PSVita run-down. It's pretty awesome. When I was at home the internet capabilities on it were great, the problem being here at school is that there are issues with the location-based things so Near and Maps don't always work right. But I can still get to the PS Store and access leaderboards and surf the web and such.
If you like gaming on the go, and want to invest in one of these, go for it. It's a really excellent piece of hardware. It has a decent line up of games as well and there are a bunch of games coming out this summer (I think LittleBigPlanet and Resistance are in May) it looks like this system is going to get the game support it needs to keep it strong.
Thanks as aways for reading, tell your homies to come here to!
I do not have a lot of money right now so with the money I did have I bought a 16 GB memory card and I got a gift card so I was able to buy one game: Rayman Origins. I had yet to play it and Giant Bomb and other sites were giving it great reviews so I decided to pick it up. The game is great, but I am more here to focus on the hardware/software that is the PSVita.
So after a week I can really say it is quite an awesome piece of machinery. It really is. The dual analog sticks are a portable-gamer's dream, and the screen is amazing. Rayman looks great and so does Motorstorm RC for that matter. People have complained about holding it weirdly because of the rear touch panel, but I can grip it comfortably without touching at all. Not that it matters for the games I am playing at all.
It's shiny, and it stays relatively shiny. Even after playing it for a day it still looks relatively clean. I have a microfiber cloth nearby so it isn't that much of a hassel to wipe off the screen quickly. I have had no issues with battery life simply because I always have a cord nearby. The fact that it is USB and I can plug it into my computer or whatever makes it really easy.
The software is, well, mediocre. The menus are alright and the bubbles look decent but there is some clunkiness to it that I just do not like. Take, for instance, having to go into the settings menu. You have to launch the settings app and then press start and then you have the settings. They aren't quickly at your fingertips like a PS3. The same goes for the trophies list, or the friends list and what have you. It just feels like there are few to many screen taps to get to some of the relatively simple menu items.
But like I said, I am having a great time with it. I am still working through Rayman and the Motorstorm RC races are a lot of fun. Quick load times for both games I have to say. I feel like switching from even to event in Motorstorm RC is really quick and snappy. Rayman is a lot of fun and I am glad I picked it up to play with. I'm enjoying it even if I am not really clear on the storyline.
So yeah, there's my PSVita run-down. It's pretty awesome. When I was at home the internet capabilities on it were great, the problem being here at school is that there are issues with the location-based things so Near and Maps don't always work right. But I can still get to the PS Store and access leaderboards and surf the web and such.
If you like gaming on the go, and want to invest in one of these, go for it. It's a really excellent piece of hardware. It has a decent line up of games as well and there are a bunch of games coming out this summer (I think LittleBigPlanet and Resistance are in May) it looks like this system is going to get the game support it needs to keep it strong.
Thanks as aways for reading, tell your homies to come here to!
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Post 200 | I'm 20
Look at those two's and zero's in that post title! I am 20 today! More precisely I turned 20 at 7:16am this morning!
Geese, I'm 20... Really weird eh? I think so. Weird to think that I was born in 1992. That is a long time ago. It was an entire different millenium or whatever. Very weird. Very, very weird. I am a child of the 90s and a kid/teen of the 2000s and becoming an adult in the 2010s. Life just keeps on moving and boy is it fun.
I've had a ton of Happy Birthday's from people on Facebook and in real life and text messages and a phone call and yeah, it's awesome. There's a group of us going out to Steak and Shake tonight to celebrate so, yay. We are also having cake afterwards.
This past weekend I celebrated with my family and got a Playstation Vita from them so that's unbelievably rad. My dad also got me the original Star Wars on laser disk, so I need to get a laser disk player at some point and actually watch that, because that would be hilariously awesome.
But yeah, I'm 20 and so my blog is changing as you can see, the url will be changing to:
http://www.twenty-somethingguy.blogspot.com/ (DON'T FORGET THE HYPHEN!!!) so change your bookmarks or whatever you need to, because you will no longer find me at this URL! Only feels fitting that a change is happening. I am trying to write more and get more people to read this so changes must happen!
Keep it real everyone, enjoy life, have fun birthdays, celebrate with the people you love and just have a positive attitude towards things! Seriously! Life can suck sometimes, but birthdays are a great reminder that there are a lot of people that care about you and probably genuinely wish you well!
Thanks as always for reading and don't forget, URL change! You might be able to also track down my blog with my email: xLavax!@gmail.com or whatever, I don't know, I just write and change the way the thing looks haha. I'll be changing the URL tonight after the festivities are over so YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!!
Geese, I'm 20... Really weird eh? I think so. Weird to think that I was born in 1992. That is a long time ago. It was an entire different millenium or whatever. Very weird. Very, very weird. I am a child of the 90s and a kid/teen of the 2000s and becoming an adult in the 2010s. Life just keeps on moving and boy is it fun.
I've had a ton of Happy Birthday's from people on Facebook and in real life and text messages and a phone call and yeah, it's awesome. There's a group of us going out to Steak and Shake tonight to celebrate so, yay. We are also having cake afterwards.
This past weekend I celebrated with my family and got a Playstation Vita from them so that's unbelievably rad. My dad also got me the original Star Wars on laser disk, so I need to get a laser disk player at some point and actually watch that, because that would be hilariously awesome.
But yeah, I'm 20 and so my blog is changing as you can see, the url will be changing to:
http://www.twenty-somethingguy.blogspot.com/ (DON'T FORGET THE HYPHEN!!!) so change your bookmarks or whatever you need to, because you will no longer find me at this URL! Only feels fitting that a change is happening. I am trying to write more and get more people to read this so changes must happen!
Keep it real everyone, enjoy life, have fun birthdays, celebrate with the people you love and just have a positive attitude towards things! Seriously! Life can suck sometimes, but birthdays are a great reminder that there are a lot of people that care about you and probably genuinely wish you well!
Thanks as always for reading and don't forget, URL change! You might be able to also track down my blog with my email: xLavax!@gmail.com or whatever, I don't know, I just write and change the way the thing looks haha. I'll be changing the URL tonight after the festivities are over so YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!!
Monday, March 12, 2012
Post 199 | Final Teenage Day
Wow, wow wow wow. Tomorrow I turn 20. That's it, no more teenage years, this can no longer be the blog of a teenage guy because, well, I will no longer be one. That is really weird to think about. I mean really these years have been absolutely amazing.
Great friends, great memories, great times, great just about everything. I've had my rough patches for sure but overall it really has been quite amazing. Entering my twenties is something that scares me quite a bit.
This are really the years that I will establish myself as a member of society: I will graduate college, hopefully get a job, maybe get married, get my own apartment or something, become independent of my parents, and so much more. It really is the time of my life where I really become who I am. I plan on taking it one day at a time and having as much fun as I can along the way.
It will be quite a decade I think. I can hardly remember what I was doing when I was ten at this time. I really can't. I would have been in 5th grade maybe? I'm not even sure haha. Oh well. I hope to keep this blog going and going and going until maybe one day I will get tired of it? But for now the plan is to just keep on trucking. I've decided to keep the blog here for now. I will be changing the URL and perhaps the colors and stuff but that will happen tomorrow. I was born sometime after 7:00am so I feel it is only fitting for that to happen tomorrow when I get up. No way am I waking up at 7am haha.
But really let's get back to the years gone by. Middle school was a lot of fun. All of the drama club stuff was basically my middle school career. It is what I did, and it is what I loved. Now let us move to high school, because that is really where ya grow up. Oh man high school... Friends gained, friends lost... Basically what you expect out of high school.
It was a really great four years. Band was absolutely amazing and I miss those guys like crazy on a fairly consistent basis. I had some great friendships and formed one hell of a relationship with my girlfriend, Tasha. We had kind of an intense break, but here I am on the other end of it, still in love and still quite happy. Because of mine and Tasha's relationship, or what we think the reason is, we lost some friends. Well she more so than me, and it is a little strange, but we have moved on (for the most part).
And of course I entered college, making more great friends than I ever thought I would. I've already got a little gang together going out tomorrow for my birthday, and anytime I see them anywhere on campus it always brightens my day. I finally have great guy friends, like I never have before. I have never been one to have a really good friendship with a guy but college has certainly changed that.
Now here I stand (well I'm sitting but you get the picture), on the cusp of entering my twentieth year of life. That is two decades down and hopefully many to go. Here's to the future, man. I hope all goes well and life just keeps being one big adventure.
For those of you who have perhaps been reading my blog since its teenage years, or have just recently started reading, be aware of the incoming URL change, it will happen at some point tomorrow, I have not yet decided on what yet though so yeah, I'll change it tomorrow night and will probably post tomorrow morning what it will be changed to. Just keep that in mind!
Great friends, great memories, great times, great just about everything. I've had my rough patches for sure but overall it really has been quite amazing. Entering my twenties is something that scares me quite a bit.
This are really the years that I will establish myself as a member of society: I will graduate college, hopefully get a job, maybe get married, get my own apartment or something, become independent of my parents, and so much more. It really is the time of my life where I really become who I am. I plan on taking it one day at a time and having as much fun as I can along the way.
It will be quite a decade I think. I can hardly remember what I was doing when I was ten at this time. I really can't. I would have been in 5th grade maybe? I'm not even sure haha. Oh well. I hope to keep this blog going and going and going until maybe one day I will get tired of it? But for now the plan is to just keep on trucking. I've decided to keep the blog here for now. I will be changing the URL and perhaps the colors and stuff but that will happen tomorrow. I was born sometime after 7:00am so I feel it is only fitting for that to happen tomorrow when I get up. No way am I waking up at 7am haha.
But really let's get back to the years gone by. Middle school was a lot of fun. All of the drama club stuff was basically my middle school career. It is what I did, and it is what I loved. Now let us move to high school, because that is really where ya grow up. Oh man high school... Friends gained, friends lost... Basically what you expect out of high school.
It was a really great four years. Band was absolutely amazing and I miss those guys like crazy on a fairly consistent basis. I had some great friendships and formed one hell of a relationship with my girlfriend, Tasha. We had kind of an intense break, but here I am on the other end of it, still in love and still quite happy. Because of mine and Tasha's relationship, or what we think the reason is, we lost some friends. Well she more so than me, and it is a little strange, but we have moved on (for the most part).
And of course I entered college, making more great friends than I ever thought I would. I've already got a little gang together going out tomorrow for my birthday, and anytime I see them anywhere on campus it always brightens my day. I finally have great guy friends, like I never have before. I have never been one to have a really good friendship with a guy but college has certainly changed that.
Now here I stand (well I'm sitting but you get the picture), on the cusp of entering my twentieth year of life. That is two decades down and hopefully many to go. Here's to the future, man. I hope all goes well and life just keeps being one big adventure.
For those of you who have perhaps been reading my blog since its teenage years, or have just recently started reading, be aware of the incoming URL change, it will happen at some point tomorrow, I have not yet decided on what yet though so yeah, I'll change it tomorrow night and will probably post tomorrow morning what it will be changed to. Just keep that in mind!
Friday, March 9, 2012
Post 198 | Finally Knowing
So my relationship with Tasha has been weird for a while now. It seems that we hit some kind of spot where things were, well, weird.
Last Friday, on the way home for Spring Break, I really confronted her about it. Like dead on. She could not escape as we were traveling in the car at the time and I finally kind of found out what has been going on in her head. I do not think it is appropriate for me to divulge all of that information to strangers on the internet but finally knowing is kind of a relief.
We were able to talk it out and kind of discuss it and figure out what we want right now. No we are not breaking up and yes we are still very much in love, she just wanted something to change and was afraid to ask about it and I think getting her to admit to it, while it really sucks for me, was good. She kind of hammered it in today because I was all confused about it and blah blah blah.
So I have been in a crappy mood all day because of it, but at least I know now so we can get back to our relationship the way it is supposed to be. Not knowing what the hell was going on in her head was the worst. I think that can be the worst in an relationship. When a communication barrier has been placed up and cannot be broken down, it is impossible for the relationship to go absolutely anywhere.
But now it seems we can move past it and work towards where we want our relationship to me. And while one of the changes really bothers me, and annoys me, and confuses me to no end, I am trying to understand and hopefully will, maybe, probably not. Oh well...
So here are some words of wisdom for anyone out there in a relationship, communicate and do not be afraid to tell them what you are really thinking. Maybe they are thinking the same thing or perhaps they have wanted you to open up so bad it has been killing them. Just, please, be honest with one another, it really helps in the end.
So I am timing this to work out where my 200th post will be on my 20th birthday. Kind of cool eh? I think it is awesome that it worked out like that. I am still working on new title ideas and we'll see if I can't come up with something good by Tuesday. Thanks as always for reading and you should perhaps maybe have your friends meander over to my little part of the internet, thanks!
Last Friday, on the way home for Spring Break, I really confronted her about it. Like dead on. She could not escape as we were traveling in the car at the time and I finally kind of found out what has been going on in her head. I do not think it is appropriate for me to divulge all of that information to strangers on the internet but finally knowing is kind of a relief.
We were able to talk it out and kind of discuss it and figure out what we want right now. No we are not breaking up and yes we are still very much in love, she just wanted something to change and was afraid to ask about it and I think getting her to admit to it, while it really sucks for me, was good. She kind of hammered it in today because I was all confused about it and blah blah blah.
So I have been in a crappy mood all day because of it, but at least I know now so we can get back to our relationship the way it is supposed to be. Not knowing what the hell was going on in her head was the worst. I think that can be the worst in an relationship. When a communication barrier has been placed up and cannot be broken down, it is impossible for the relationship to go absolutely anywhere.
But now it seems we can move past it and work towards where we want our relationship to me. And while one of the changes really bothers me, and annoys me, and confuses me to no end, I am trying to understand and hopefully will, maybe, probably not. Oh well...
So here are some words of wisdom for anyone out there in a relationship, communicate and do not be afraid to tell them what you are really thinking. Maybe they are thinking the same thing or perhaps they have wanted you to open up so bad it has been killing them. Just, please, be honest with one another, it really helps in the end.
So I am timing this to work out where my 200th post will be on my 20th birthday. Kind of cool eh? I think it is awesome that it worked out like that. I am still working on new title ideas and we'll see if I can't come up with something good by Tuesday. Thanks as always for reading and you should perhaps maybe have your friends meander over to my little part of the internet, thanks!
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