Words from what is probably my favorite band of all time. I can relate incredibly well. I carry the weight of my life upon my shoulders each and every day. From school, to future school, to a job, to band, to my parents, to my whole family. No matter what I seem to do I can never satisfy my family. I could be the top student at my school and they would probably still not be happy. I quit pit orchestra so I could focus on getting a job, my mom said I didn't have my priorities straight. HELLO? YOU'RE THE ONE THAT WANTED ME TO GET A JOB.
At least I have Tasha by my side. She sees what I see and knows what I feel. I wish I could have talked it out more with her tonight but she fell asleep I think. I didn't do as many journal entries as usual this past week. Though I am doing one today which is good, it's always good to come back to. Once a week like this will be good.
I have had some ideas for some podcasts recently, having a mac will do that to a guy. There is one that is a solo idea that would be nice to vent and stuff and there is one that would just be plain fun. I can't give away the name because I don't want it to be stolen and I don't even know it may have been used already. Or it may be copyrighted and completely off limits but oh well I will look into it. The microphone in my mac itself isn't bad at all. Tasha and I were just sitting here talking and it was picking everything up pretty well and pretty clear too not like muffled or anything, I wonder where the mic is on this thing. Anyways back to the weight on my shoulders...
I have to make the decision on where I want to go to school. I need a job. I need... wait I don't need to satisfy my parents, I only need to do what is right for me. I need to do what I need to do that will make me happy, I can't be bent on satisfying them my whole life it will lead to who knows where. I need to do what is best for me not them.
Ok, thanks for reading my blog whoever does. Comment if you do, follow me on Twitter (feed on the right) or email me or whatever it doesn't matter to me, I just like to know someone out there is reading what I am posting. Ok, thanks for reading, talk to you all next week hopefully.
1 comment:
It will all be okay. Tasha is a great person, and you'll be out of the house in a few months, and out of your parents' hair. Things then likely won't be so strained. Get some perspective if you need to, and try to keep smiling. =)
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