Hate

Hate, what is hate? Well according to it's definition it is: "intense hostility and aversion usually deriving from fear, anger, or sense of injury b : extreme dislike or antipathy" (m-w.com). And I hate to break it to you all, but I do hate someone.

Do not fret it is not someone close or a friend or anything I just hate them. Plain and simple. And hate is not a word I use loosely. In fact I almost like everyone but there is this one person that I absolutely loathe. Now, you may be wondering "who is this mystery person" well I will not state his/her name simply because it is probably a better idea that I don't.

Now this wasn't someone I was friends with for a long time, or a family member, or anything like that, it is just someone that I tried to be friends with and it just got the door slammed hard in my face. Hey, what did I do? As far as I am concerned (and of course this is a one sided story) nothing... Wait, let me state that again... NOTHING. There that's better. Any who, I tried to be nice to this person because he/she was a friend of the girl I am now dating (I guess that kind of narrows down the list of possibilities). I invited him/her to every party I had, or bonfire, or anything that I had at my house. I went out with him/her and did everything I could to just get him/her to like me. Now, I start dating his/her friend and BAM (no I didn't get hit by a bus) but, haha, no more being nice.

Suddenly, I am the enemy. Fear me I guess. Now I get all these pranks pulled on me, and nastyness from his/her group of friends. Now, when I got to high school I essentially swore off childish behavior. I knew my life was ahead of me (and still is) so I do my best to be an adult, so I did not enjoy any of this, frankly, it pissed me off. Of course I question Tasha (my girlfriend) "why?" and she gives the clear response "I have no idea" and to this day we still have no idea. Now this whole friendship-trying-to-make thing was last summer and that BAM thing was last fall. The pranks kind of ended (there was one a few weeks ago but whatever), and they stopped talking to Tasha. Overtime less and less of her friends stopped talking to her. Her friends appear to have a problem with me dating her.

But she doesn't care. Which is the greatest thing in the world. I feel so bad for what has happened. It sucks, I am very grateful my friends have accepted us but it just seems like they have a problem with me and I have no idea what it is.

But anyways, I gave up. No more Mr. Nice Guy from me I just choose to ignore them and after all this time, I just don't like them (I guess I am saying them because it was a couple of people that did the pranks and stuff). In face I hate them. Well not them, just the one person. But hey, this bitterness didn't pop up until today when my heart sank.

She doesn't want to go out with him/her tonight but she wants to make everyone happy so she is. Which I can understand but him/her has been bothering about going out all summer and she just wants to get it over with. I am typing this while she is out. Which I guess is a good timing because it is keeping me distracted. I am going over to her house when she gets home and all will be well in the universe. Just stinks because her phone got shut off so I haven't been able to text her for over a month (my typing skills on my iPhone have drastically declined, seriously!). Oh well, just have to get over this hump and everything will be ok.

I guess that is all for this longer post then usual. In good news the Pancake Monday Podcast seems to be going fairly well, and I just got the Fire Brigade LEGO set yesterday and after two days of hard work it is complete and sitting aside its brothers (picture on my twitter feed (which is on the right)). Life is going pretty well as college quickly approaches. Summer is going by a tad too quickly for my liking and it stinks. Oh well, I am trying to make the most out of everything. I have a new desk and it's awesome. StarCraft 2 beta is awesome and I have release day delivery from Amazon so woo! So, that's all for now, thanks for reading and please comment and stuff and check out Pancake Monday Podcast! Bye!