So being at work with a lot of mindless tasks to take care of, it gives me a lot of time to think about different aspects of my life. There are some that I love and some that I hate but one in particular that keeps coming to mind.
I have been in a relationship for almost three years.
In that time I have aged from 17 to 20, started college, gained and lost friends, made good and bad decisions, learned a lot, studied a lot, changed my hair, learned to dress better, but I also can't help but think I have missed out on some things...
There are some things in life that someone can only really experience if they are single. Ya know? I am happy in my relationship and I am fairly certain I am in love with her, but how can I know for sure? She is the only person I have ever been in a relationship with. The only person I have ever gone out on a date with. The only person I have kissed, etc, etc. Compared to her who has been in a relationship before.
I think it has created this weird postion for me to be in. I want to still be with her and everything but every once and a while I wonder what it would be like to date someone else even though I don't really want to. Does that make sense? I think it does...
It might be coming off as ass-holeish of me to say but I think I am making a fair point.
At this point I am just going with the flow. I want to stay with Tasha but I don't think I am afraid of breaking up with her if that ever happened. I used to be really afraid of it but thinking so much lately has made me realized no matter what happens it will all be ok. Just going with the flow. Whatever happens, happens, and there is nothing I can really do to stop it.
I love Tasha and I am staying with her. That doesn't mean I can't wonder, right? Ok, I thought so. Keep it real everyone, thanks for reading. If you ever wanna talk to me or anything shoot me an email: jneuman13@gmail.com
2 comments:
i feel that-kinda in the same boat
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