Post 207 | Communication Problems

So I know my girlfriend Tasha doesn't read my blog... I don't know if that should be a sign that she doesn't care or what but I'm ignoring that for now... Instead I want to talk/type today about communication. Well maybe more of rant... I don't know I haven't quite decided yet how this is going to work, so I'll just jump into it and let's see what happens.

So I was thinking today about how my girlfriend and I communicate. Or how I communicate to her and her lack of communication. Which seems a little backwards I guess. Isn't it the guy who usually has the communication problems? With the not texting back and stuff? Well imagine that kind of thing except reversed where she is the one that doesn't text back, or ask me about my day, or ask how I'm doing, or ask how I am feeling, or ask about how I think our relationship is going... She doesn't ask me anything.

I start every conversation it seems like, I can only get information about her day or how she is feeling if I drag it out of her. This can be incredibly frustrating as I am sure anyone in a relationship can attest. She often says "I didn't have anything to say."

On a related note today was the first day in ages she gave me any sort of compliment.

Ok back to what I was talking about. She often time just doesn't respond or attempt to carry on the conversation or says something like "I got distracted" or most recently "I stopped caring."

This just doesn't seem right to me...

Am I wrong? Should I just forget about it? Or is her lack of communication something I should attempt to talk to her about?

The thing is her lack of communication or expression of caring about how I am doing leaves me unfulfilled and upset. Like right now I am sitting here angry and tired of it all... But I love her.

But is it enough to keep the relationship together if I feel like I don't get out of it what I used to? I used to be able to talk to her about everything but it seems like we are in this weird spot where she isn't willing to talk about stuff. Or is there just nothing to talk about? Should I leave the college and transfer? Would more distance help?

It seems like she has more fun with other people than she does with me. Random people who I don't know. But she wont talk to me about them like I do her. I talk about the group meetings I go to and what happened and she just kind of nods and smiles and doesn't offer any kind of response really. She doesn't talk about what she did or anything...

We don't even spend that much time together anymore. We have two classes together and eat lunch and dinner together but that's kind of it. Rarely do we spend time alone just chilling or watching something or heaven forbid talking.

She doesn't write me cute notes or flirt with me or anything really...

Our relationship just kind of.. Is...

What do I do? I just don't know...