Post 181 | A Year in Review

So last night/this morning whatever you want to call it 2011 reached its close. It is over, done and done. But what the hell happened in that year? It's weird to think that a year has gone by since well, a year ago. We have now entered 2012 and for a lot of people they believe it is the end of the world come next December, I do not believe that simply because, well, I don't. So what happened in 2011? Let's see if I can recall...

Well I remember LittleBigPlanet 2 came out at the beginning of the year. So did Killzone 3. My original PS3 died (RIP) and I got a new one for my birthday. Oh yeah I turned 19! I finally really opened to the guys on my floor and are becoming better and better friends with them this school year. Oh right my Freshman year of college ended that was crazy! And I finished my third semester, well enough in my opinion. Became better friends with a Rebecca I met in band (she's awesome btw), and attempted to open up more to my girlfriend, and get her to open up as well (which did not go so well...).

I guess I should take a moment and reflect on my relationship with Tasha eh? We have been dating for 2 years and 3 months or something like that, which is a long ass time. I think it was a weird year for us. We kind of peeked before 2011 began and things have been strange-ish since summer 2011. I dunno, but I love her (at least what I believe to be love) and am not sure if I want to end things because of the weirdness which is odd for me to admit really. I think she loves me but at the same time I sort of feel taken advantage of. I half feel like she does not fully appreciate all I do for her, or who I am, or what I want from the relationship. Which makes me feel like a failure at the relationship but I do not know if it is my fault or hers or what. But I think I am thinking way too much about it and I think I want to keep it going and see what happens.

If things end, they end, and that will be sad but I think I have come to terms with the fact that I would be ok if they do end. It will suck, really bad. I'll probably be depressed for a few weeks, if not months, but in the long run I think I would be ok. We shall see, I don't think I would ever have the, sorry for the phrase, balls to break up with her, I think it would have to come from her end. Which is also odd to admit, but I think it is good for me to do. Makes me realize I rely too much on this relationship and need to rely less on it and maybe things will balance out.

ANYWAYS, what else happened? Oh I worked all summer, that was a snooze fest but definitely appreciated because, well, I got a car. Not just any car mind you, a Jeep. Which I have always wanted. I also built some LEGOs, played video games, got better at Starcraft 2, exercised a little more, got a fish, petted my dog, hung out in Chicago, became the online editor for my school newspaper and a board op for my school radio station, read some books, watched A LOT of television shows...

Oh let's stop for a moment on the books thing and talk about Harry Potter. HOLY HELL DEATHLY HALLOWS PART II WAS AMAZING!!! I mean really, if you are a HP fan and disliked that movie, or a movie goer and disliked that film, something is seriously wrong with you. I saw it on a film critic's top 10 list at number 4 for the year. It was so amazing and fantastic and ugh, now I want to watch it again. We did the whole midnight premier thing and it was so awesome with all of those people, and I cried during it and ahhhhh. Yeah, ok, geek moment complete. Harry Potter will always be amazing and always be a HUGE part of my life. It is really sad that it ended and Jo's speech at the premier was beautiful and just the perfect way to say goodbye to those films and what all of that was. Oh and Pottermore, which I can't wait to be open for everyone and start getting more books in there!

Ok, what else... I stayed up 24 hours for the first time ever, that was fun! There was a bit of tension in the air for two reasons: 1. Three of my friends had to rush home to take care of another friend in crisis and 2. Two people kind of tried to take over what was happening and that kind of put a damper on some of my other friends and that was very unfortunate. But it was still amazing and awesome and I want to do it again and hopefully have people stay the whole time and stay up the whole time and ah ok.

I think it was a year just like any year. My life keeps on rolling on and being pretty good for the most part. There are some things I wouldn't mind experiencing this year, and some things I wouldn't mind changing this year, and some things that I just want to keep the same, but I don't want to say this is going to be the best year ever like some crazy people, because I have a lot of years left (hopefully) and I want this to be just as good as the rest of them.

Ok whoever is reading this, stay awesome and I hope you have an awesome start to 2012. Thanks for reading.